CHAPTER 61
> LUHAN’s POV <
I can still remember how I met her 2 years ago. It was totally unexpected. It was Monday, the day that I hate the most. You know why? Because of the noise. I hate the noise that was coming from the girls that chasing us, EXO. So, I decided to disguise myself during Mondays.
That disguise did help a lot. Everytime I did that, no one could ever recognized me as Lu Han. I was just an ordinary nerd student whenever I disguise myself.
Though it wasn’t turned out to be good sometimes like one time, everyone ignored me like I didn’t exist in this world. They keep bumping at me and insult me. Well, I did not care at all! I think it’s better than to reveal who really I am. They will go after me for sure especially the girls.
Until that day came, the day I first met my love tutor with the named Han Sooyoung. To be honest, I have no idea who she is until our world crossed.
That day, I bumped to someone. Well.. they are actually 3 girls. I apologized but as expected, they insulted me especially the one that I bumped to. I wanted to punch her that time but I didn’t. She’s still a girl, that’s what I thought and I don’t hit girls that’s why.
But then after they left, I bumped to someone again, a girl. This time, I really want to scold her but she spoke that made me stopped on doing so. She apologized first. I don’t actually used to it because I’m always the first person who apologized whenever I bumped to someone while I’m on my disguise.
I looked at the girl who I bumped to. She’s very simple yet her beauty was adorable. I wanted to say something but I couldn’t find the right words for return.
“Mianhe. I didn’t mean to make your uniform wet.” I heard her said that to me. Wet? I thought. I looked down on my uniform and then I realized what she was saying. Still, I didn’t say anything.
But then she offered me a lunch for return on what she did. I stopped her beause I don’t want anyone to see me. They will only insult me if I did. But the next thing she said surprised me. She told me to wait her at room 512 then she left immediately.
I wanted to ask her why but she was already gone. Since I have nowhere to go, I did as she told me to do. I waited for her at the place she said. I waited 10 minutes but still, I can’t see any sight of her around the classroom.
I was about to leave the classroom but the door suddenly open and reveal that girl. “Where are you going? Didn’t I told you to wait me here?” that was her question.
I told her that I thought she won’t come back anymore. She smiled at me and dragged me back inside the classroom to eat.
I also realized that she bought a food for one person only so I offered her to join me. At first, she rejected but then eventually, she agreed. She was about to use the fork but I grabbed it first. It will be hard for her if she used the fork so I reserved the spoon for her.
That time, I thought I already found the right girl that will give the color of my life but I guess I’m wrong. While we were eating, someone suddenly called her on the phone.
I heard a boy’s name at their conversation and I couldn’t help it but ask her though I’m not sure if she’s going to answer my question or not but she did. She said that it was her boyfriend. Yes, the person from the other line was her boyfriend. His name is Myungsoo. I knew him because of my friend, Lay. They used to perform guitar at school but I never thought that this girl is his girlfriend.
She bid her goodbye to me after that phone call. I wanted to stop her. I wanted to be with her the whole day or even everyday. I know it’s crazy because I only knew her that day but what can I do? I think I’ve fallen for her in just quick minutes.
I was about to ask her name but I was too late. She was already gone. That day, I was already rejected even though I didn’t confess yet. She’s already have a boyfriend and I can’t change that fact.
Ever since that day, I stopped my usual thing every Mondays. I didn’t put my diaguise on anymore. It feels like it reminding me of my quick time with her and it’s hurting me the most that I can’t be with her because she already have someone else. After that incident, I became different. Even my friends saying that and I can’t change it anymore. That heartbreak changed me.
Now, I can only look at her from afar that no one can notice but I’m wrong because Kris was there. No matter how I secretly look at that girl, I’ve never noticed that Kris was also secretly watching my every action. I almost forgot that I have a suspicious friend like him. But why do I feel that he knew something that I didn’t know?
I hate seeing her with that Myungsoo guy. I hate seeing her smile I know that she was only smiling because of him. I hate myself because I can’t do that. I hate it whenever I saw her alone with her. I really hate it!
Also, I hate to see her crying because of him. I thought he won’t let her cry but I’m wrong. He suddenly went to Japan without her knowing.
When I saw her crying, I wanted to approach her. I wanted to hug her to make her feel better. I wanted to make her smile because of me. I wante to do those things but I couldn’t because I’m not that brave to do so.
After that bastard left, the usual smile on her face wouldn’t appear anymore. I could see that her friends are trying to cheer her up but it wasn’t enough to make her happy like before. I saw her smiling but I know it’s fake. She’s only doing that because she doesn’t want her friends to worry about her.
It’s been already 2 years since then but I’m still in love with this girl. What exactly you did to make me fall hard to you like this?
2 years had already passed but my feelings for is still the same like two years ago. I tried to approach her again but I can’t. I’m not brave enough to do that.
Until one day, our world crossed again for the 2nd time. It was unexpected like how I didn’t expect our first meeting. Someone sending weird letters to me.
Honestly, I wanted to throw it when I received the first letter but there’s a part of me that telling me not to.
Finally, I caught the person who’s sending me weird letters. I was shocked, VERY shocked when I saw the girl I’m in love with in front of me holding the same paper that my sender using everytime I received a letter.
Though I knew that girl, I kept myself calmly with the same expression. The Cold-Hearted Luhan taht everyone knows. Right at that moment, I could feel that she was scared. I wanted to talk to her calmly but I can’t because she will get suspicious so I remained to my usual thing of being cold.
On our second meeting, I’ve finally got to know her name. Han Sooyoung, that name fit her well.
I know I’m selfish but I really want to get close to her again so I took this chance and ask her to help me with the ‘Teaching to fall in Love’ thingy. Whether it turned out good or bad, I don’t care. Well at least I took this chance to get close to her.
Also, I choose room 512 for our every session because I’m hoping that she will remember me but I think she didn’t. I was in disguise in that time and I look like a nerd so who will remember that kind of creature right? No one..
But I never thought that I will get close to her more than I thought. We became bestfriends for real though I wanted more than that status. Beause of our second meeting, I know that I can’t stop myself on falling for her anymore.
I know that we became closer to each other because she’s going to teach me how to fall in love. There’s no need to that anymore because she already did it 2 years ago. She already teach me to fall in love with her.
And now, I took this chance because I wanted to teach her to fall in love with me. I will do everything to make her fall in love with me.
I thought I can do that because we’re happy when we are together but I guess I’m wrong. When Qri came, it feels like she’s giving me to Qri. She said that Qri’s the right girl for me but she’s wrong because on the very first place, the girl with the named Han Sooyoung was only girl that my heart wanted.
Since she started it, I continued. She wanted me to be with Qri, I did. I thought if I did that, she will realized that she’s in love with me but then again, I’m wrong because on the first place, she wasn’t in love with me. She will never fall in love with me if she’s still in love with her ex-boyfriend.
Her smile before, I saw it again but not because of me but beause of Myungsoo again. I wanted to be happy with her but I can’t. Everytime I saw her smiling because of another man, my heart burst into pieces. It feels like there’s a knife stabbing my heart.
Kris told me to confess to her but I don’t know if it is right if I do that. Should I really confess to her?
Now, I’m with Qri and she’s with Myungsoo (?) Is this really our fate? To be with someone else?
CHAPTER 62
It was morning again. Luhan woke up on time as well as Kris.
“Do you made up your mind now?” Kris asked. Luhan stared at him and paused for a moment before he nodded, “Ne. I’ll confess to her later.”
Kris smiled, “Finally, you’re going to do the right thing.” he said. Luhan smiled, “Yeah. Just wish me luck.”
Kris stood up, “I don’t think I still need to do that but since you requested it, I will. So, goodluck Luhan.” he patted Luhan’s shoulder before he went from their room.
Luhan took a deep breath, “Yeah. Goodluck to me...” he whispered before he followed Kris outside.
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On the other hand, you were already preparing yourself for school as well as your friends.
After an hour, all the 4 of you stepped out from the dorm.
You looked around, looking for someone. “Sooyoung, are you looking for someone?” Yuri suddenly asked. You looked at her, “Eh?” then you shook your head, “Ani.”
You looked around once more. You let out a sigh for relief. *Thank God, Myungsoo didn’t come.*
“Sooyoung?”
You turned to the direction of the voice. It was Qri. She was smiling as she approach you. “Uhh.. Qri.”
Your 3 friends looked at you worriedly. They worried about your feelings. They knew that you’re hurting everytime you see the girl that owns Luhan’s heart.
“Luhan texted me and he told me he can’t fetch me today. Umm.. Can I walk with you guys?” she asked.
Your 3 friends glanced at each other before they looked back at you again.
You smiled, “Of course, you can. Kaja!”
Qri beamed and nodded. With that, your friends didn’t say anything anymore and just silently walk behind you and Qri.
“Luhan told me aboit Myungsoo. He said Myungsoo is your ex-boyfriend and now he’s back. Are you with him again?” Qri suddenly asked.
You paused then shook your head, “Ani.” you replied ahortly.
“You know what? I could see that he was sincere to you.” Qri said again.
“I know.”
“Then why don’t you accept him again? You’ll be lucky if you got together with him again. You two looks good together.”
Yuri was about to join the conversation but Yoona held her back. “Qri doesn’t know anything. Always remember that.” she whispered to Yuri.
Yuri sighed, “Aish! How I wish she never appear in our lives.” he whispered. “But she already did.” Seohyun said.
The 3 of them remained walking behind you and Qri. They keeps theirselves calm and not to join the conversation or they will only make things worst.
On the other hand, you didn’t gave Qri another response on her statement. Actually, you doesn’t want to talk about Myungsoo and even Luhan at this moment. You wanted your mind to rest of thinking many things.
Just then, you finally arrived at your first class with Yoona. “Come on, Sooyoung.” Yoona called.
You nodded, “Ne.” you faced Qri, “I’ll go first. See you around.”
Qri smiled and nodded. With that, you entered the classroom with Yoona. “Gwenchana?” you heard Yoona asked you. You nodded, “Gwenchana.”
“Are you sure?” she asked once again. You only nodded.
Yoona was about to say something when someone’s arm suddenly wrapped around your shoulder. You looked up, “Uhh.. Myungsoo..”
He smiled, “Did you sleep well?”
*No, not really.* You forced a smile, “Ne.”
“That’s good to hear.” he said.
Yoona rolled her eyes, “Class will start anytime soon. We better go to our seats now.” then she left.
“Tss! She still mad at me.” Myungsoo said. “What would you expect?” you snapped.
Myungsoo pouted and sighed, “Well at least you’re not mad at me anymore, right?”
“Mwo?”
Myungsoo smiled and shook his head, “Nothing. Come on, let’s go to our seat.” then he dragged you to sit.
The teacher came just after the both of you sit on your respective seats.
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Time quickly goes by. It’s now time for the 3rd subject. English is your favorite subject but this class is definitely not your favorite.
Still, you headed to your 3rd class with Myungsoo. Qri and Luhan was already there.
“Kaja?” Myungsoo asked.
You looked up and slowly nodded, “Ohh..”
The both of you entered the classroom and headed to your respective seats. As usual, Qri greeted you. You forcedly greeted back.
Myungsoo was facing you while he was sitting on his seat in front of yours. You gestured him to sit properly but he didn’t. He only keeps his eyes on you.
You lowered your head lightly, still not used to it. But at the corner of your eye, you could see that there’s someone also looking at you besides Myungsoo. It was Luhan.
*Aigoo! I’m going to die by their stares. Luhan stop that. You’re making it hard for me to forget my feelings for you..* you thought.
“Good morning class!”
Finally, the teacher came. Myungsoo fixed himself on his seat and focus on the teacher. That was a relief for you but Luhan’s stare at you didn’t stopped.
Still, you wasn’t looking back. You remained silent on your seat and tried your best to focus on the class.
Eventually, Luhan also focus on the class after some minutes of staring at you. You silently sighed in relief.
Soon, the class ended. It’s now time for lunch.
“Sooyoung, I can’t eat lunch with you today. I have something important to do. Mianhe.” Myungsoo said.
You shook your head, “Ani, it’s okay. I understand.” you replied and smiled. “Gomawo. So, I’ll go ahead now.” he said. You nodded then he left.
“Where is he going?” Qri suddenly asked. “He has something important to do. He can’t go with us.” you said.
“Come on, others must be waiting for us now.” Luhan interrupted.
Both you and Qri nodded. The 3 of you then left.
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“Sooyoung, over here!” you saw Yuri waved at you. You looked up and smiled.
You, Luhan and Qri approach them. There are only 4 empty seats and the worst is, those are in one place. The first empty seat was beside Kris so you took it.
Unexpectedly, Luhan sat next to you and Qri next to him.
*Why did he sit next to me? Aish!* you nervously thought.
“Good thing, you wasn’t with that Myungsoo guy, noona. I really don’t like him with you.” Sehun spoken.
You only chuckled.
“Don’t be around him again, ne?” Sehun said once more. “I can’t.” you honestly replied.
All of them stared at you in surprised especially Luhan and even Kris.
“Wae? Don’t tell me, he’s your boyfriend again?” Sehun asked in panic.
You chuckled, “Ani.”
Luhan silently sighed in relief as Kris smiled. “They why?” Suho asked.
“Myungsoo and I were in the same classes so it’s impossible for me to be not around him.” you explained.
“Ohh.. I thought you accepted him again.” Sehun said. The others laughed at the maknae’s reaction.
“But I think Sooyoung is happy with Myungsoo.” Qri suddenly stated. All the attentions shifted to her.
“I don’t think so.” Yuri snapped. “Nado. I don’t think she’s happy with him.” Kris agreed. “Yeah, agree to them.” Sehun beamed.
“Yeah. She wasn’t.” Luhan suddenly said that made all of you remained silent and stared at him.
Luhan slowly gazed at you. He was about to ask you to have a talk with him but the noise around stopped him on doing so.
“KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! He’s so hot!” “That Sooyoung girl is so lucky!!” “IKR?! How I wish I have a guy like him to court me like that! Kyaa!”
That was all you heard around the canteen. *What exactly happening. Are talking about me?*
“Oh! Look, she’s here!” a girl pointed at you. “Me?” you pointed to yourself. “Yeah. Go to the quadrangle and find it by yourself.” the girl said as she gestured you to go.
You stood up and immediately went out from the canteen and did what the girl had said. EXO and the others followed you.
Then there he was, Myungsoo was playing guitar at the quadrangle. At first, he didn’t noticed you. Just then, he finally found your direction as a smile automatically formed on his face.
Myungsoo then started the song. It was a love song. Actually, your favorite song. He used to sing it to you before and this is one of the reason why you fall in love with him.
All you did was stared at him, not moving ang just watched him performing.
As the song ended, you heard the girls squealed because Myungsoo is now slowly walking towards your direction. Still, you wasn’t moving but your eyes wouldn’t leaving him.
Right at this moment, Myungsoo is now in front of you. He looked at you straightly in the eyes. You stared back.
“Sooyoung, I know you still mad at me. I know I hurt you once and I won’t let it happen again, ever. I know that I’m confusing you by my sudden appearance but if only you know, I’ve been waiting for this to happen. I’ve been wating to back with you again. And now that I’m here again, I don’t want to lose this chance, I don’t want to lose the only girl that owns my heart. I don’t want to lose you again.” he paused then,
“Han Sooyoung, will you be my girlfriend... again?”
CHAPTER 63
“Han Sooyoung, will you be my girlfriend... again?”
That question made the people around you remained in silent and even yourself. There you are, staring at Myungsoo without saying anything.
Slowly, you looked around and saw a very familiar pair of eyes on the scene, it was no other than Luhan. He was staring at you but you couldn’t read his expression.
Just then, Qri suddenly appered on the sight. You saw her hugged Luhan’s arm as she smiled at him. Then she turned to your and Myungsoo’s direction, “How sweet they are, right Luhan?” you heard her said as she smiled to Luhan again.
You slowly looked away, not wanted to see them together anymore. You then faced Myungsoo and stared at him for a moment.
“I know you were shocked by what I did just now and I know that you weren’t ready yet so I’ll respect if you won’t acc—” before Myungsoo could finished his sentence, you cut him off.
“Yes, I’ll be your girlfriend again.”
There was a silence in the atmosphere for some seconds until the students around started squealing because of the sweet scene that they’re watching right now.
Still, Myungsoo wasn’t reacting. He was tenderly gazing at you that made you feel a little bit uneasy. Just then, you saw him smiled.
After you saw that smile, you found yourself smiling back. Slowly, Myungsoo lean forward until his lips met yours. With no reason, your eyes started to close as you let Myungsoo to kiss you.
You wanted to forget the pain on your heart. The scene of Qri and Luhan wouldn’t stop playing on your mind. You wanted to forget Luhan so you let yourself kissed Myungsoo back.
On the other side, Kris was face-palming himself as he saw the scene. *Is this the end?* he turned to Luhan’s direction, *Is he really a man? Is he going to just stand there and watch the girl he love kissing someone else? Tss! Luhan, you now lose your chance and I can’t you anymore..*
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Krriiiiiiiiing!
The bell rang that remarks for the end of lunch time.
“Let’s go. I’ll walk you to your class.” Luhan said to Qri as she held her hand and dragged her out of the scene.
Qri gazed at their holding hands. She smiled, *This is the first time he hold my hand first instead of me first. And it feels different. I felt butterflies on my stomach. I think I’m falling for him even more. Even I didn’t got a chance to et lunch today, I’m alright. I’m not hungry anymore because when he held my hand, it gives me lot of energy than the food giving me..*
Meanwhile, Myungsoo let you of your lips and smiled. “You have no idea how happy I am right now. I can’t believe you accept me again. I promise, I’ll necer leave you anymore.” he said sincerly.
“I know.” you replied shortly.
“I didn’t expect that I’m going to use the whole lunch time for this but it’s worth it. Come on, let’s skip our next class. We’ll eat lunch first. I know your already hungry.” he held your hand and was about to walk to the canteen but you stopped him.
“I’m not hungry and I don’t want to skip class. Can we just go to our next class?” you asked.
Myungsoo nodded and smiled, “Anything you want.” with that, the two of you headed to your next class.
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The time goes by quickly. All the classes are now ended. It’s now time for all the students to go back to the dorms.
Since Myungsoo is now your boyfriend, he walked you back to your dorm to make you safe. The both of you walked there hand in hand though your mind wasn’t focusing on that. You were deeply in thought but Myungsoo didn’t noticed it because he couldn’t stop himself on his happiness he was feeling right now.
“Good night Sooyoung, sleep well and dream of me.” Myungsoo happily said as he lean in and kissed your forehead. “Bye.”
You only replied him a nod. Myungsoo smiled at you once more before he completely out of your sight.
You let out a long sigh before you finally entered the dorm. Right after stepped inside the dorm, 3 pair of eyes landed on you. Well.. you were already expecting this to happen.
“Why did you accept him again?” that question greeted you by Yuri. “Because I love him.” you simply replied.
“Are you trying to fool us, Sooyoung? You don’t love him anymore.” Yuri snapped.
“And the one you in your heart now is Lu—” Yoona didn’t finish her sentence as you spoke, “Don’t mention him.”
“But you love him right?” Yoona asked. “For now, yes but my feelings for him will eventually go away.” you said. Seohyun was about to join the conversation but you spoke again, “And as for now, I don’t Myungsoo but I know that this is the right decision I can do. I think this is the best way for me to forget my feelings for him. I’m doing the right thing. Myungsoo and I, we used to be together and we can back how we used to be before.”
“But Sooyoung...” -Seohyun
“It will happen,” you slowly faced them, “..if you guys give all your support to me.”
“How can we do that if we knew that you love someone else?!” Yuri hissed.
You smiled, a fake smile. “That someone also loves someone so I need to forget my feelings for him before I couldn’t stop it anymore. All I need is the support coming from my friends, from the 3 of you. Let’s not talk about it now. I’m already tired. I want to take some rest. Goodnight.” with that, you headed to your room and let your mind to rest.
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On the other hand, Luhan walked Qri to her dorm. The walk was silent until they reached the dorm.
“Thank you for the walk. I’m going inside now.” Qri said. Luhan only gave her a nod as a response.
Qri stared at him for a moment then let out a silent sigh, “Goodnight.” with that, she finally entered their dorm.
As Qri disappeared from his sight, he turned aroun and was about to leave but he stopped halfway. He glanced back, not to Qri’s dorm but the dorm where you are staying.
With a sigh, Luhan looked in front again and started to walked away.
While he was walking on the way to his dorm, he suddenly saw Kris. He stopped and so did Kris. There are only centimeters away to each other. They’re eyeing each other.
After only a minute, Kris walked towards Luhan and gave him a punch on the face that made Luhan fell on the ground. His face turned to the aide beause of the impact of the fist of Kris.
Luhan touch the left corner of his lips as he felt a blood on it. He was right, it’s bleeding. Slowly, he looked up to face Kris.
“Are you really a man huh?! How could you let that happen?! Now, what are you going to do?! You can’t do anything because you’re not brave enough to confess to her!” Kris grabbed his collar to stand his up and gave his another punch but this time to the other side if Luhan’s face.
Still, Luhan didn’t do anything. He just let Kris punch him like that.
“Do you really love her?! Answer me!!!” Kris shouted but not too loud. He was still aware to the people inside the dorm around the two of them.
Still, Luhan didn’t say anything.
Again, Kris punched him two times. “Now, do you know the answer of my question huh?! Or do you want me to punch you another one?!” -Kris
“Y-Yes, I love her! I really love her! And I hate myself of being like this! Of being weak when it comes to my feelings for her! I hate my life without her!!!” Luhan half-shouted as his tears started to fall down.
Kris only stared at his friend.
Luhan half-conciously looked at Kris, “I desrve it, I deserve many punch so punch me again to wake me up by doing stupid things like this.”
After Luhan said that, Kris gave his one last punch without any hesitation. It made Luhan fell on the ground again.
Kris glared at him, “Now, I’m hoping that I wake you up by being stupid, Luhan. Just follow your happiness. Honestly, I don’t want to talk to anymore because I’m annoyed to have a stupid friend like you. And since I already said it. As one of your friend, I wanted you to fight for her. I’m not saying this because I wanted to but because you need to.” Kris fixed his uniform then held out his hand, offering for Luhan.
Luhan weakly smiled but took his friend’s hand. Kris pulled him up, “You better do what I’ve said before you completely lose her.” with that, he walked off first.
Luhan watched his friend’ back for a moment, *My face was hurt because if his punch but my heart is hurting more than the punch I get from him. I think he was right. I need to do what I need to do and I’m not going to lose a chance anymore. I’ll fight for her...*
With that, Luhan half-conciously followed Kris back to the dorm.
CHAPTER 64
Another day came again. It was Saturday means no classes. It was actually a pleasure to you since you still didn’t know how to face everyone after what happen yesterday.
You’re now awake but you weren’t getting up from your bed yet. It’s not because you’re still sleepy, it’s just that you don’t want to. You still didn’t how to explain your situation to your friends.
But still, you need to. You forced yourself to get up and went out from your room. Since Seohyun wasn’t inside the room, maybe she’s already outside.
You were right. Your friends already awake but they looks like they’re going out. They weren’t wearing normal clothes so maybe they’re going somewhere.
“Are you guys going out? Can I come?” you asked brightly.
They all stare at you. No one spoke for a moment until you heard Yuri said, “You can’t come.”
“Eh?” you titled your head.
“Your boyfriend is waiting for you outside.” Seohyun said.
“Myungsoo is waiting for me? As in right now?” you asked in panic.
“Yes. That bastard is waiting for you.” -Yuri
Yoona elbowed her and whispered, “Yah, watch your words. Myungsoo is his boyfriend now.”
“Wae? I’m just calling him the word describing him. Besides, I don’t like him with her. Psh.” -Yuri
“Yah, low your voice. Sooyoung is still in front of us.” Seohyun snapped as she glanced at you.
You fake a smile, “No, it’s okay. I’m going out first.” you were about to approach the main door but Yuri snapped you.
“No. We’re going first. Let’s go, Yoona, Seohyun.” then she started to walk off. Still, Yoona and Seohyun didn’t move.
“Yah, Yoona, Seohyun let’s go!” Yuri called.
“Uh-oh..” Seohyun glanced once more at you before she followed Yuri while you heard Yoona sighed and looked at you, “We’ll going now.”
You only gave her a nod then finally followed Yuri outside.
You also followed since you need to approach Myungsoo in front of the dorm. You saw Yuri glared at him before she completely walk passed by him. Seohyun and Yoona only gave him a glance as they passed by.
*Eotteokhae?*
“Good morning, Sooyoung.”
You snapped out your thoughts when you realized that Myungsoo already approached you. You forced a smile, “Good morning. What brings you here?”
“Waeyo? Can’t I visit my girlfriend in the morning?”
“Oh.. Ani. I mean, look at you. You dressed well.” you pointes out.
“Right. Go and get ready. We’re going out.” he commanded.
“Eh? Eodiga?” you asked.
“You’ll see. Just go and dress up.”
You just stared at him. He smiled, “Don’t worry. We’re only going out for a date. I’m going to kidnap you or anything. You’re now my girlfriend anyways.”
Still, you kept staring at him.
“Palli, don’t waste the time. Go and wash.” then he pushed you back inside the dorm.
You lightly smiled and nodded. “Gurae, wait here while I’m preparing myself.” He smiled widely, “Okay.” then he sat on the couch.
With that, you started to walk. But then, you stopped halfway as you glanced back at him. *Gomawo, Myungsoo. I’ll try my best to return you my love..* then you finally entered your room.
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“Ready?” Myungsoo asked as he saw you already dressed up when you went out from your room.
You smiled and nodded.
Myungsoo motioned his arm, offering for you. He turned to you and smiled, “Kaja?”
You beamed and linked on his arm, “Kaja!”
As the both of you stepped out from the dorm, your smile quickly faded. There he was, Luhan standing right in front of you as you met his eyes.
“Can I talk to you, Sooyoung?” he spoken.
Myungsoo glanced at you then back to Luhan, “Can you do that next time. We’re going out on a date today.”
“Sooyoung?” Luhan totally ignored Myungsoo as he only looked at you.
You only stared at him. *Eotteokhae?* “Sooyoung, please?” -Luhan
“Luhan,” you started. Luhan focused his eyes on you only.
Then you continued, “Mianhe but I’m busy today. You heard what Myungsoo said, we’re going out on a date. Let’s not talk for now.”
“But—”
Before Luhan could finish his sentence, there’s another voice snapped the conversation. “Luhan?”
You, Luhan and Myungsoo turned to the direction of the voice. You saw Qri walking towards the 3 of you.
“What brings you here Luhan? Are you going to ask me out? Gurae, I’m free.” Qri said.
You glanced at Luhan and so did him. Qri hugged Luhan’s arm, “Good morning Sooyoung, Myungsoo.” she greeted.
“Good morning.” -Myungsoo
You only gave her a forced smile as a response. You looked up at Myungsoo, “Let’s go. Time is running.”
He smiled and nodded, “So, we’ll go off first.” then the both of you started walking.
You were about to walk passed by Luhan but you couldn’t because he stopped you by doing so as he grabbed your wrist.
You froze. Slowly, you faced him. “We need to talk.” you heard him said.
“Mian. I’m going out with Myungsoo. Let’s just talk some other time but not now.”
“Sooyoung..”
“Luhan please.. Not now.” after you said that, you slowly removed his hand from your wrist then hugged back Myungsoo’s arm. With that, you and Myungsoo completely leave Luhan and Qri.
Qri stared at Luhan. “Qri, I don’t want to go out today. I want to take some rest the whole day.” with that said, Luhan left.
Leaving Qri, dumbfounded.
---
“Gwenchana?” Myungsoo worriedly asked as the both of you entered his car.
You smiled, a fake smile. “Ne, gwenchanayo.” you replied.
Myungsoo reached out your hand and gently squeeze it as he smiled. You just returned him a smile.
With that, the car droved off.
On that day, Myungsoo brought you to the amusement park. This is the first place that Myungsoo brought you when you become his girlfriend before and now, this is the first place he brought you as his girlfriend again.
But.. it’s not the same like before anymore. Yes, he was in love with you and both of you are together again. But still, you’re not in love with him anymore but with someone else.
This is hard but you kept yourself looks happy around Myungsoo so he won’t get suspicious. You tried your best to enjoy this day with him although you wasn’t, really.
The day ended immediately. Both you and Myungsoo went back to school as he walked you back to the dorm. You bid him goodbye and you thank him for this day.
As you entered the dorm, you found your friends already sleeping. You silently sighed and silently entered your room.
Your eyes caught the deer stuffed toy that Luhan gave you in China. You slowly went on your bed and hugged the stuffed toy.
A tear unknowingly fall down from your eye as you fell asleep while hugging the stuffed toy.
CHAPTER 65
[ Sooyoung’s (you) POV ]
I don’t know what to do anymore. Seems like my heart will explode anytime soon because of what I’m feeling right now.
When I saw Luhan this morning, I wanted to hug him. I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to take care of him. The moment are eyes met, I could feel how my heart beating very fast for him and only for him.
I saw some bruises in his face that time. I wanted to ask him where did he get that but I can’t. I don’t want to go near him again or I can’t stop this weird feeling that my heart is feeling towards him.
But there’s a question in my head that I couldn’t find the answer.
Why Luhan wanted to talk to me this morning?
Hayy.. Now, I’m curious. If only I agreed to talk to him...
[ End of Sooyoung’s (you) POV ]
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Monday came fast. You did your daily routine then headed to your first class. Your friends were nowhere to be seen around the dorm.
*They’re still mad at me..* you silently sighed.
“What’s with that sigh?”
You jumped a little by the sudden voice. You turned around and saw Kris. “Ohh.. Kris.”
“So, why are you sighing?” he asked.
“Nothing.”
“Guraeseo? By the way, where’s your so-called boyfriend?”
You gave him a look, “Yah, Myungsoo is my boyfriend now so scratch that so-called whatever!”
Kris rolled his eyes, “Yeah. Yeah. So, where is he?”
“I told him to not fetch me anymore. We both have the same classes until the school hour ended so I told him there’s no need to do that.”
“Tss.” You raised an eyebrow at his reaction. “Waeyo?”
“I can still say that you’re in love with Luhan by doing this.”
After you heard him said that, you quickly covered his mouth and glared at him, “Yah, watch your words. Someone might hear you. Shut up, okay.”
Kris removed your hand from his mouth, “Psh! Why don’t you just confess to him?” he whispered.
“Mwo?! I can’t. He already has a girlfriend and the same situtaion with me because I already accepted Myungsoo.”
You heard him sigh, “Same and lame reason.”
“What?” you asked, confused.
He only shook his head, “Nothing. Just go to your class before you get late. I have to go also. See you at lunch.” then he went off.
You did as he told as you headed to your first class.
Time really came fast. It’s now lunch. What happen during the 3rd class?
Well.. Honestly, nothing happened. You could feel how Luhan wanted to talk to you yet he didn’t. Qri was around so maybe that’s why. All you just did was focus on the class. Luckily, you did it well. Now, the 4 of you were walking to the canteen.
“You guys, go first. I need to use the rest room.” you said. “Do you want me to wait for you in front of ladies rest room?” Myungsoo asked.
You shook your head and smiled, “There’s no need for that. Just go first and I’ll follow after I use the rest room.”
“I can go with her. I need to use the rest room too.” -Qri
The 3 of you turned to her. She just smiled.
“Okay, go with Qri then.” -Myungsoo
Luhan only remained silent the whole moment.
Qri turned to you, “Kaja?” You smiled and nodded. With that, the both of you headed to the rest room.
Myungsoo and Luhan left alone together. “Come on. Let’s just wait for the girls at the canteen.” Myungsoo said.
“You go first. I still have something to do. I don’t know if I can eat lunch with you guys today. Just tell this to others for me.” Luhan replied.
“How about Qri?”
“I’ll call her later.” with that, Luhan completely leave.
---
“We haven’t talk nowadays. You must be very busy with your boyfriend huh..” Qri started a conversation as the both of you were walking towards the rest room.
“Ohh.. Mian. I’m just busy nowadays..”
“Psh! No need to explain. I know you wanted to have time with your lover.” she teased.
You just gave her a smile, a fake one. “Yeah.. Maybe.”
“Oh! We’re here already. Come on, let’s use the rest room.” -Qri
You nodded then followed her. There’s 2 girl students also inside the rest room. There’s only one free cubicle. “You go first.” you said.
“Are you sure?”
You nodded.
“Okay. I’ll make it quick.” with that, she entered that cubicle. Just after some minutes, Qri stepped out.
“You can use now. Umm.. Can I just wait for you outside?” -Qri
You nodded, “Yes, you can.” with that, Qri went out as you used the cubicle. As you were inside, you heard the other 2 doors of the cubicle opened. Maybe the 2 girls finished using it now.
Just then, you suddenly smell the scent of perfume. Your eyes widen, *Omo!*
“Woah! I like your perfume. What brand is it?” “Secret.” “Waeyo? I wanted to try it too.” “Just give me your hand.” “Hmm..” “There. Be contented by that.” “Psh. Do I have a choice but anyway, thanks.” “Your welcome friend.”
You heard their conversation then you heard their foot steps go away.
---
Qri was waiting for you outside as she saw the 2 girls went out from the rest room but something caught hee attention. She suddenly noticed that the girl locked the door before she closed it. Qri blocked their way.
“Waeyo?” -girl 1
“Why did you lock the door?”
“Huh?” girl 2 asked as she glanced at her friend.
“I saw you locked the door.” Qri said to girl 1.
“No, I didn’t locked the door.” -girl 1
“Let’s see.” then Qri aproached the door and she’s right, it was locked. “Now, are you going to deny it huh?”
The girl 1 crossed her arms acrossed her chest, “You know what? You don’t have any business about it. The girl inside, she deserves it.”
“Mwo?! What are you saying?!” Qri asked.
“Wait! Is Han Sooyoung the girl inside?” -girl 2
“Yes, she is. Why?” -Qri
“Omo! Mina, what did you do? Eoteokhae? Yah, go and open the door.” the girl 2 said to girl 1.
“Shut up, Nana. If she die today, she will be happy because at least he gst close to EXO and even become the Guitar Prince’s girlfriend. Come on, we don’t have any business here anymore.”
The girl was about to go but Qri held her back, “What did you do to my friend?!”
“Nothing.” then the girl walked off. The other girl glanced at Qri before she followed her friend.
But Qri held her back also, “Tell me, what your friend did to my friend?”
“I’m sorry.” the girl 2 said a she lowered her head. “Tell me, what’s going on please?” -Qri
“My friend spray perfume inside the rest room and Sooyoung might die because of it. She has hypersensitivity towards perfume if I’m not mistaken.” -girl 2 then she left.
Qri froze, *She might die? No!!!* Qri approached the door again, “Sooyoung?!”
No response.
“SOOYOUNG! SOOYOUNG, OPEN THE DOOR, PALLi!!”
“Qri...” she heard your low voice inside.
---
You were already a bit unconcious inside a you heard Qri’s voice outside the rest room. You responded but in a low voice because you were having a hard time to breathe.
“Sooyoung, can you open the door?” you heard Qri asked. You didn’t say anything but you tried your best to approach the door yet you failed.
Qri was panicking outside. She pulled out her phone and started to dial.
---
Luhan sighed many times at the roof top as his phone suddenly rang. He saw Qri’s name on the screen of his phone. He was hesitating if he’s going to answer it or not.
*I should explain it to her. She must be lookinh for me now.*
Right after Luhan placed the phone to his ear, he already heard Qri spoken. “Luhan, Sooyoung needs help.”
With that, Luhan ended the call and hurriedly darted to the ladies rest room. He found Qri knocking the door.
“What’s going on? Where is she?” Luhan continuously asked. “She’s inside and someone sprayed perfume inisde. Sooyoung is in danger.” Qri nervously replied.
“Fuck!” Luhan approached the door. “Sooyoung, did you hear me? Sooyoung? Open the door!” he called as he continuously knocking the door.
“Luhan..” that was he heard from you inside the rest room.
---
You heard Luhan’s voice behind the door.
You tried your best to speak, “Luhan..”
With that, everything went black.
---
“Qri, get the key. Palli!” Luhan ordered. Qri quickly did it because of Luhan’s shout.
After some minutes, Qri went back with the key. She get it from the janitor of the school.
Luhan immediately open the door amd found you lying on the floor. “Shit.” he cursed as he quickly put you on his back, giving you a piggy back ride.
“Luha—” Qri was about to approach Luhan but he was already passed by her as you were unconciously on his back.
Qri silently sighed as she watched Luhan walked away with you. She then went to the others to tell it to them especially Myungsoo.
---
You slowly open your eyes, still a bit tired. Right after you open your eyes, the sight of Myungsoo greeted you.
You carefully sat up as Myungsoo helped you. You stared at him for a moment, maybe you were seeing a different person.
You shoulders fell as you confirmed him as the real Myungsoo. *I thought Luhan was the one who saved me...*
“Gwenchana?” he asked.
You slowly nodded, “Gomawo... for saving me. I thought I was going to die.”
Myungsoo held your hand, “That’s not going to happen. I won’t let that happen. Also..” You turned to him, waiting for him to continue.
“..you don’t need to thank me. Thank Luhan. He’s the one who saved you. I’m very thankful he was there to save or I don’t know what to do if I lose you again.” -Myungsoo
*Luhan saved me? I’m not hallucinating.. Luhan is really the one who saved my life..*
CHAPTER 66
It’s been already 1 and half months since that incident happen. You talked to Qri on what exactly happened that day.
:: flasback ::
“How’s your feeling now? Gwenchanayo?” Qri asked.
You nodded, “Yes, I’m perfectly fine. Umm.. Qri,”
She faced you the moment she heard her name from your voice. And so you continued, “Can I ask you what happened that day?”
“There’s a girl student sprayed perfume inside the ladies rest room and she locked the door. She did it on purpose because I’ve talked to her that time. Luckily, her friend wasn’t bad and told me what’s happening inside. She also told me about your attraction towards perfumes. The moment she said that, I panic. I don’t know what to do so I contacted Luhan. He’s the only one that crossed on my mind that time. I was surprised when he came quick and the others weren’t with him as he came. He did all his best just to save you. He even shouted at me and I was really stunned because that’s the first time I saw him like that. He’s really worried about you. Luhan really cared for you.”
Honestly, you didn’t know how to react by that statement. *He shouted at Qri? But why?* that’s the only thing on your head. You were confused by Luhan’s action. *And he’s worried? Maybe because I’m his bestfriend.*
“What happened to the girl?” you asked.
“After Luhan brought you to the clinic, he confronted the girl and immediately kicked her in this school. She’s no longer studying here.”
“Mwo?! Luhan did that?! Aish! That guy is really stubborn!!” you muttered.
“No, he’s not. He’s just worried about you.” Qri muttered.
You turned to Qri who’s looking back at you. “Qri, can you say my ‘thank you’ to him for me?”
“Why don’t you do that by your own? Why don’t you thank him personally?”
You shook your head, “No, I can’t.”
“But why?”
“I can’t say it to you or to anyone else. Just do it for me, please Qri?”
Qri only stared at you.
“Please?” you repeated.
You heard her sighed, “Okay. I’ll do it.
You smiled and held her both hands, “Gomawo, Qri. Gomawo...”
:: end of flasback ::
Until now, you haven’t talk to Luhan. Though how many times Luhan aprroached you, you always ignored him. It’s not that you wanted to ignore him forever, you just only wanted to not to talk to at this moment. You’re still not ready to talk to him yet.
---
The end of semester is coming. Everyone is busy for making their plan for the sembreak.
Today is now the last day of the class. Luhan decided to talk to you again but then again, you went home immediately.
He was about to go to your dorm but Qri called him, “Luhan!”
He turned around and saw Qri walkong towards him. “Can I talk to you?” Qri asked.
“As in now?” -Luhan
Qri nodded, “This is important.”
Luhan stared at her for a moment then sighed, “Okay. Kaja.” then they walked off to the roof top.
---
There was a silent in the atmosphere as Luhan and Qri reached the roof top. Both of their arms are resting at the railings while they’re staring at the scenery in front.
“I’m going back to China.” Qri finally started the conversation.
Luhan stared at her in surprise. He didn’t expected this.
Qri smiled, a fake one then faced Luhan. “But before I go, I wanted to ask you a question. Do you really love me?”
Still, Luhan just stared at her without saying anything. He remained silent because he doesn’t know how to answer that question.
Again, Qri smiled and her gaze went back in front. “You don’t have to answer that. I already know the answer. But Luhan,” she paused.
Then she continued, “..do you love Sooyoung? Not as a bestfriend but as a girl?”
That question made Luhan froze. Before he could react, Qri spoke again.
“No need to answer that question also. I think I already know the answer. I know you do. To be honest, I came here because of you. When I met you in China, I fell in love with you. You can call that ‘love at first sight’.” she chuckled, “That’s old, I know but that’s the truth. You know what? I’m very happy that I’ve met you. You gave me happiness even it’s just a short time. There are times that I kept convincing myself that I’m the one you’re in love with but everytime I saw you looking at Sooyoung, it’s different the way you look at me. The way you look at her, I already knew that she’s the one that you love and not me. And now here I am, you gave me a heart break. I’m not mad at you or anything. Honestly, I’m glad that you let me love you. Gomawo. Thank you for letting me love you, Luhan.”
“Qri...” Qri faced him and smiled, a sad smile. “Can I hug you for the last time?”
Luhan paused for a while then nodded.
With that, Qri hugged Luhan tightly. She remained silent for a moment until there’s a sob could hear from her. She’s now crying.
“Let me hug you a little bit, Luhan. Let me cry on your shoulder for now.”
Luhan lightly glanced at her and slowly hugged her as he gently patted her back. “I’m sorry, Qri.” he whispered.
Qri shook her head while she’s still hugging Luhan, “No Luhan, I’m sorry. Because of me, you’re having hard time. Mianhe..” he said between her sobs.
Luhan only continued to pat her back. They stayed like that for a moment until Qri spoke again, “Now, I’m ready to let you go.”
She then broke the hug and faced Luhan, “I’m willing to give you to her. So now, you should make a move before you completely lost her.”
Luhan only stared at her.
“So, I think this is a goodbye for both of us. I’ll never forget you and also the others. I’ll treasure all the moments I’ve share with you, all my happy moments with you.” she lean in and gave a peck on Luhan’s lips. “Goodbye, Luhan..” with another tear fell on her eye, she left.
Luhan wasn’t mad because of what Qri did. Actually, he’s sorry because he only used her. He just watched Qri walked away.
*I hope you’ll find the right guy for you. The right guy who’s willing to love you back. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. Minahe, Qri..*
CHAPTER 67
“Are you sure with your decision?” Qri asked Luhan as they out of the school.
Luhan paused for a moment before he replied to her. “Yes. I think this is better. I need enough time to finalize my decision. I need enough time to think for the mean time. I don’t want to ruin anyone’s relationship. I don’t Sooyoung to get confuse if I confess. A vacation in China is the best for me at this moment.”
“Do you really think that Sooyoung doesn’t have feelings for you?” -Qri
“She already have Myungsoo and he’s the one she love.”
“Are you sure, Luhan?”
Luhan stared at her in confusion. “Eh?”
Qri shook her head and silently sighed, “I guess you really need enough time to think and finalize all this. I hope you’ll get the right conclusion soon.”
“Come on, let’s get a taxi to go to the airport.” -Luhan
“Aren’t you going to bid your goodbye to them?”
“I already did. At first, EXO disagreed but they can’t stop me on doing this. Kris also wanted me stay here and to fight for Sooyoung but I told him that I need time to think aboit confessing. Besides, I’ve already decided this. My family also expected me to stay with them this sembreak.”
“How about Sooyoung? Aren’st you going to say goodbye to her?”
Luhan shook his head, “I don’t want to. I can’t see her before I leave. If I did, I don’t think I can still go to China.” Qri just silently sighed.
“TAXI!” Luhan called as he saw a taxi coming. Both Luhan and Qri get in the taxi. With that, it departed.
---
“This is the last time that we’re going to see each other. Do you want to go out with me today?” Luhan asked as their airplane landed in China.
Qri smiled and shool her head, “No, there’s no need. If we did that, I don’t think I can still let you go.”
“Are you sure?”
Qri nodded and smiled, “Hmm. Can I just hug you for the last time, Luhan?”
Luhan smiled and slowly nodded. With that, Qri stepped closer to him and hugged him tightly. “Gomawo.” Qri whispered.
They stayed like that for a moment until Qri broke the hug. “I wish you goodluck for whatever your decision is. Goodbye, Luhan.”
With that, Qri slowly turned back and walked away. Luhan watched her back with a silent sighed. *I wish you goodluck too for your love life. And also for me, I hope I’ll get my decision here in China.*
Luhan ride a taxi on the way to his home. In just an hour, he finally reached their mansion.
“Welcome home, Luhan!”
Luhan taken a back by the sudden voice. It was her naughty mom. He looks around, “What’s with this?”
“You’re back so I prepared all your favorite foods.” Mrs. Lu beamed.
“Your mom is really excited to see you again. We’re glad that you decided to have a vacation here during your sembreak.” Mr. Lu suddenly appeared behind his mom.
Again, Luhan taken a back by that. “Yah, how long did you stay behind mom?”
“Hmm.. About half an hour?”
Luhan rolled his eyes, “Yeah. Whatever! Let’s just eat.”
“Didn’t you bring Sooyoung?” -Mrs. Lu
That question made Luhan stopped. He slowly turned to his parents but looked away immediately. “I’m hungry. Let’s eat.” that was all he said and went for a seat.
Mr. and Mrs. Lu glanced at each other then to Luhan. Slowly, they followed their son at the dining area.
“Did something happened between you and your girl?” -Mr. Lu
Luhan paused, “She’s not my girl.” then he continued his food.
Mr. and Mrs. Lu glanced at each other once again. This time, they didn’t ask Luhan anymore about you. They could feel that Luhan has a problem and he doesn’t want to share it at this moment.
---
“Kris, did you know where’s Luhan? Qri suddenly disappeared. Is she with Luhan?” you asked as you make a phone call with Kris.
“Didn’t you know?” -Kris
“Know what?”
“Qri went back to China.”
“What? How’s Luhan then?”
“Uh-oh.. Umm.. Actually, Luhan went to China too but—”
You didn’t let Kris to finish his sentence. After you heard him said that Luhan and Qri went to China together, you already ended the phone call.
It feels like you’ll get a sick anytime. Seems like there’s a knife stabbing your heart. Your tears fell down from your eyes all of a sudden.
“Sooyoung?”
You quickly wiped your tears aa you heard that familiar voice. You turned around and saw Myungsoo walking towards you.
He hugged you. “Myungsoo..” you whispered.
“I don’t want to leave. I wanted to stay with you this sembreak.” -Myungsoo
“What are you saying, Myungsoo?” you asked, confused.
“My parents wanted me to go to Japan and spend my whole sembreak with them.” You broke the hug and stared at him, “Then go to them.”
“Sooyoung, I don’t to leave you anymore. I don’t want to go far from you.”
“Myungsoo, it’s not like you’re going there forever. You’re still coming back, right?”
Myungsoo nodded.
You smiled, “Then go there. Your family must be expecting you to come.”
“Can you come with me, Sooyoung?”
That question made you paused. But you still answered it, “You know I can’t. Just like your family, my mom is also expecting me to come back to our home town.”
“Then, can I come with you?”
You held his both hands, “Myungsoo, your family is waiting for you there so you shouldn’t let them wait for nothing.”
Myungsoo sighed, “But I don’t want to be separated with you again..” he whispered.
“You’ll be staying there during sembreak only and besides, we’re going to see each other again after sembreak, right?”
Myungsoo stared at you for a moment. “But the flight is tonight already.”
“I’ll go with you up to the airport then.”
Myungsoo smiled, “Cheongmal?”
You smiled and nodded.
That night, you did as you promised to him. You went to airport with him to at least you’re the one he saw for the last time before he went off.
---
“Where did you guys plan to go this sembreak? Are we going to our vacation house again?” Yuri asked as the 4 of you were inside the dorm.
They’re not mad at you anymore. They just understands you since you were their friend.
“I can’t. I want to go back to our home town.” you stated.
“Eh? I thought you only going there during summer?” -Yoona
“I just want to see my mom. I miss her already..” -you
Seohyun was about to ask you another question but Yuri already gave her a hint to not to do it. “Okay. I hope you have fun there. Your mom must’ve miss you too.”
You just nodded and smiled.
On the next day, you prepared all your things on going back to your home town. Honestly, you’ve really miss your province, your mom and your younger brother there.
---
“Omma!” you called as you finally arrived at your place. You saw your mom cleaning the surroundings, outside the house.
She looked up and an automatic smile formed on her face as she saw you. “Sooyoung-ah!”
You run to her and immediately gave her a tight hug. She hugged you back, “What brings you here all of a sudden.”
“I miss you, omma.” you silently whispered. “Nado.” you heard her replied as she patted your back.
She was about to break the hug but you stopped her, “Let me hug you for a moment.” as you said that, a tear suddenly fell from your eye.
Your mom already feel your problem. She is your mom, what would you expect?
Minutes later, the both of you broke the hug. Just in time, you wiped your tears so your mom won’t get worry.
“Where’s Minwoo?” you asked.
“He’s inside and he have visitor with him.” your mom replied with a smile.
You smiled back, “I want to see him.” Your mom nodded and the both of you went inside the house.
You saw Minwoo at the living room with a girl. Minwoo noticed you immediately, “Noona!” he stood up and quickly gave you a hug.
You chuckled, “Minwoo..”
“I miss you, noona.”
“Yah, your visitor is staring at us.” you snapped.
With that, Minwoo quickly let you go. You chuckled by his reaction.
Minwoo approached the girl and bring to you, “Noona, this is Tia. My girlfriend. Tia, she is my older sister. Sooyoung noona.” he introduced.
Your eye widen, “Your g-girlfriend? Omo! You grow up now.” you commented.
Minwoo rubbed the back of his head shyly. “Yah, you’re blushing.” you said.
“Noona!” he whined.
You chuckled and faced Tia, “Hello! I’m Sooyoung, Minwoo’s sister.” you waved a little.
“Annyeong haseyo! Tia-imnida. Minwoo’s g-girlfriend.” she politely bowed.
You chuckled, “Aigoo! You’re stammering. Don’t be nervous, I won’t bite. Besides, you’re already my younger brother’s girlfriend so act naturally around me. Also, just call me unnie.”
Tia smiled, “Ne, unnie..”
You smiled, “That’s good to hear.” you turned to Minwoo, “Go and accompany her. I’ll unpack my things on my room first.”
“Ne, noona. Kaja, Tia!” then they both went back to their seats ans continued their business.
“Come on, I’ll help you.” your mom said. You smiled and nodded. But before you could completely go inside your room, you glanced back at Minwoo and Tia.
You saw them happily talkning with each other. *Can I be happy like them too?*
With that, you started unpacking your things on your room with the help of your mom.
While you were unpacking, you suddenly saw the deer stuffed toy that Luhan gave to you. You stared at it for a moment.
Suddenly, you felt warm around your body. You looked up and realized that your mom is already hugging you.
“Omma..” a tear fell down to your cheek.
“If you have a problem, you can always share it to me. I’m always ready to listen.” - your mom
With that, you told her everything.
---
“Mom, what are you doing?” Luhan asked his mom as he saw her at the living room.
“Ohh.. I was just checking our photo albums. Come here, join me.” Luhan nodded and sat next to her.
“Look, you’re so cute here.” Mrs. Lu said with a giggle as Luhan smiled at his picture.
“Look, Luhan! You have many deer stuffed toy around you. You looks like a deer here also. So cute..”
That picture made Luhan stunned. He just stared at the picture with no reaction. He suddenly remembered you.
“Mom,” he finally started. Mrs. Lu turned to him, “Hmm?”
“Why there are stuffed toy around me at that picture and why they’re all deer?”
Mrs. Lu raised an eyebrow, “Wait, don’t tell me you didn’t know what’s the ‘Lu’ on your name means? “What?”
Mrs. Lu rolled her eyes, “Lu means deer. You should always remember that. Aish!”
*Lu means deer?*
:: flashback ::
“Why deer?” Luhan finally spoke, breaking the silence.
You turned to him, “Eh?!”
“Of all the stuff toys there, why did you like deer the most?” he asked. You paused then replied him a question, “Before I answer that, can I ask you something?”
He just nodded.
“Do you know the meaning of your name?” you asked. He simply shook his head.
“Well, the answer for your question is, I chose deer because this remind me of someone.” you stated. “Who?” he asked with curiousity.
You smiled and stood up, “I need to sleep now. You too.” with that, you started to walk. Confused, Luhan only watched you walk away but you suddenly stopped halfway though you didn’t looked back. Your back was only one facing him.
And then you spoke, “Try to search for the meaning of your name. Everyone’s names have different meanings so try to know yours. Good night.” with that, you finally went upstairs then entered your room.
:: end of flashback ::
“Aish! I’m so stupid!” Luhan cursed as he stood up. Mrs. Lu stared at him in shock. “Yah, what’s with you?”
Luhan held his mom’s hand, “Mom, book me a plane ticket to go back to Korea.”
“What?!”
“Mom, I need to go nack to Korea. I need to see Sooyoung.”
“Psh! You should’ve told me that you wanted to see her so I’ll stop queationing you already. Aish!” Mrs. Lu pulled out her phone, “Hello? I need a plane ticket to Korea. Yeah, tonight. Okay, bye.”
“Mom?”
“You have a flight tonight.”
Luhan immediately gave her mom a hug. “Xie xie, mom. Xie xie.”
Mrs. Lu chuckled, “Psh! Just do your best to get your girl. I wantes to see you with her when I visit you to Korea. Understand?”
“I will mom, I will. I don’t want to lose her ever again.”
“I know. Go and packed your things now. I’ll just tell about this to your dad later.”
Luhan nodded and went upstairs to pack his things. After packing, he dialed Kris’ number.
“Kris, I need your help. Is Sooyoung there? Ani? Where’s she then? Their home town? Is she with Myungsoo? Okay, okay. Wait, did you know their exact adress? Can you ask it to Yuri, Yoona or Seohyun? Please, I need your help. I need to see Sooyoung. Okay, I’ll wait for you to send the adress. Thank you.”
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Morning came, you woke up early to clean the surroundings. This is actually your usual thing to do whenever you’re staying at your home town.
“You want me to help you?” you heard your mom asked as she went out from the house.
“Ani. I’m fine. Just take a rest inside. I already cook breakfast. It’s on the table.” you said.
“Are you sure?”
You nodded, assuring her. She smiled, “Okay then. Just go inside if you get tired.” she said. You nodded then she went back inside.
While you were cleaning outside, in front of the house, you suddebly noticed a pair of foot a bit far from you. It made you stopped on cleaning as you slowly lifted your head.
You froze.
You’re now seeing the person you’ve miss so much. The person that owned your heart. The person that giving you pain yet giving you weird feelings at this moment. That person is just a centimeters away from you right now.
It was Luhan. He have luggage with him that made you confused. He was straightly staring at you as you stared back. The both if you stayed like that for some seconds until Luhan finally made his way towards you.
After some seconds, he’s now in front of you. The moment he made the last step, Luhan pulled you into tight hug.
You were surprised but you still forced yourself to speak though it’s only a whisper. “Luhan..”
But then you heard him said,
“Bogoshipo...”
CHAPTER 68
“Bogoshipo...”
The moment you heard him said that, your heart skipped. Though you still tried to speak, “Luhan..”
“I miss you, Sooyoung. I really miss you.” Luhan whispered.
You just remained silent and let him hugged you. To be honest, you’ve craving for his hug for a long time. Now that he’s hugging you, you felt secured and safe. If only you could stop the time, you will do it.
Just then, Luhan spoke again. “You have no idea how much I wanted to do this. It seems like forever. I’ve been waiting this to happen. Now, I’ve finally got a courage to do this. Today, I will tell you what my heart is saying.”
“Luhan, what are you talking about? I think you’ve mistaken me as Qri.” you were about to break the hug but Luhan didn’t let you instead he hugged you tightly than before.
“Ani, I’m not mistaken you as Qri and I wanted to say this to you, Sooyoung and not to anyone else. Actually, Qri and I broke up.”
“Mwo?!” this time, you lightly pushed him that made you broke the hug. You narrowed your eyes to him, “Why did you broke up with her? Didn’t you know how much she loves you? She’s nice and I know that she will do everything just to make you happy, you know that Luhan? You shouldn’t have broke up with her!”
“YES, she do really love me and she will do everything just to make me happy that’s why she broke up with me.” he said as he looked at you straightly in the eyes.
“Mwo? Qri is the one who broke up with you? But why? She loves you...” you lowly said.
Luhan gently held your left hand then gazed to your eyes. You just stared back, still confused.
“Do you want to know why did she do that? It’s because she knows that I’m not happy with her. She knows that I love someone else. I love another girl.”
“Luhan...”
“I’ve been in love with that girl for such a long time but I’m not brave enough to confess. I’ve been in love with her two years ago, could you imagine that? Two years ago when I’ve first met her. I fell in love with her that day but that day also gave me heart broken. I found out that she has already a boyfriend so I decided to love her secretly.” he paused, “I was shocked when I met her again this semester. Though I already knew her yet I kept myself on being cold towards her because I don’t want to fall in love with her again. I don’t want to feel heart broken again but my heart wouldn’t stop beating for her. Everytime I’m getting ready to be cold to her, I’m warming up everytime I’ve talk to her. I thought no one notice it but Kris knew it all along. I’ve even received many punch from him just to wake me up on being a coward. Since then, I know that my heart never stop beating for her. Since 2 years ago until now, that girl is still the one who owns my heart. The girl that makes me confuse, frustrate, and even makes me crazy. And that girl is...”
He made another paused. That moment, your eyes starting to get teary for some reason.
Luhan held your other hand using his other hand also. He’s now holding both of your hands. “That girls is the one in front of me right now. That girl is you, Sooyoung. I know I’m stupid for not doing this before but no one can stop me now no matter what. Han Sooyoung,”
You just stared at him, waiting him to continued.
“...Saranghae.” he finally said the magic word.
The moment you heard him said the magic word to you, your tears escaped from your eyes. You couldn’t help it but burst into tears.
“Sooyoung, why are you crying? Did I say something wrong?” you could feel that he’s worried as he said that.
Slowly, you punched his chest. “Babo! You babo deer!” you continued punching his chest, “You didn’t know how much I’m suffering because of you. You have no idea how much you’re hurting me everytime I’m seeing you with Qri. Now, you suddenly appeared in front of me and tell me you love me? Are you really stupid, Luhan?!” you still continued punching him while your tears continuously falling from your eyes.
But Luhan suddenly grabbed your wrist and pulled you for another hug. “I know I’m stupid for not telling you my feelings that’s why I’m soing this now because I don’t want to be stupid anymore. Sooyoung, I want to love you. I love you, Sooyoung.”
You continued crying while he’s hugging you but you didn’t hugged him back. “Why now? It’s already too late. Now that Myungsoo and I are together again, we can’t be together anymore. We’ve missed our chance to be together, Luhan.”
“I can’t accept your reason, Sooyoung. That’s not valid. Tell me, do you love me?” -Luhan
You didn’t answer him and just continued crying on his shoulder.
Slowly, Luhan released you and stared at you but you were lowering your head to avoid his gaze.
Then, Luhan reached your chin to makes you look at him straightly in the eyes. Your tears didn’t stopped falling down to your cheeks at that time. Luhan carefully wiped it away before he asked you once again.
“Sooyoung tell me the truth, do you love me?”
You made a paused then answered him honestly, “Yes, I do. I do love you Luhan but—”
Luhan pressed a finger on your lips to stop you on talking. “Don’t say anything. That’s enough for my question.” then he slowly removed his finger from your lips.
“But—” you were about to speak again but he cut you off.
“Continue saying that or I’ll kiss you to stop you on talking.” -Luhan
That sentence made you stopped as you swallowed hard. Luhan chuckled, “Good girl. Don’t worry, I’ll reserve that kiss next time.” he winked then he pulled you into a hug again.
“Don’t think about Qri, Myungsoo or anyone else. For now, just think of me. Only me..” you heard him said.
You smiled, nodded and hugged him back. “I will.”
After a while, he released you from the hugged and walked back to where his luggage is and get it. He went back to you and intertwined his hand to you, “Kaja!”
You became alert and stopped him, “Wait, where are you going?”
“There!” he pointed to your house.
You followed his point. Your eyes widen, “MWO?!”
He smiled, “Come on, I’ll be staying here with you until the end of sembreak.” with that, he pulled you inside the house.
CHAPTER 69
“Yah, Luhan!” you called him and tried to stop him but he didn’t. He continued dragging you inside the house.
“Yah, Luhan. What do you think you’re doing?” you whispered. “I’m just doing what my heart is telling me to do.” he replied with a smile.
You blushed as you remembered his confession.
“You’re cute when you’re blushing.” he commented.
You looked away, embarrassed.
Luhan chuckled, “Don’t be embarrass. It’s okay if you’re blushing but make sure that I’m the reason why and not anyone else.”
You looked up to face him. He smiled and gently pinched your cheek, “I’m so lucky to have a girlfriend like you.”
“Mwo?! Girfriend?!” you gasped in surprise.
He only gave you a sweet smile then he continued dragging you inside. You were about to stop him again but it’s too late. Luhan already opened the main door of the house.
Right after the door opened, you found your mom went out from the kitchen as she stared at the both of you while Minwoo just got out from the bed as he also stared at you and Luhan with a confused expression.
*Aigoo! Eotteokhae??* you panicked as you bit your bottom lip.
“Sooyoung, who is he?” your mom asked as she pointed at Luhan. Minwoo is only waiting for your answer.
You were about to answer that question but Luhan already did.
“Annyeong haseyo! Luhan-imnida. Sooyoung’s boyfriend.” he politely bowed then smiled at them.
You stared at him in disbelief. You faced your mom and your brother with an awkward smile, “Don’t believe him. He’s lying.”
“Then why are you both holding each other’s hand? Take note, intertwined hands.” -Minwoo
You realized that he’s right as you gazed down to your hand. You were trying to espcape from his grip but he didn’t let you instead he held it tightly than before.
You looked up at him, “Luhan..”
“I won’t let you go... ever.” he said softly.
Your heart skipped as he said those words.
“Noona, is he really your boyfriend?” Minwoo asked once again.
You stared at him, he seems curious to know aboit the answer. You glanced to your mom, she was smiling at you. Since you already told her everything that happened to you, you weren’t surprise to her reaction anymore.
Just then, your mom answered that question for you, “He is really your noona’s boyfriend.” she said with a playful smile.
You stared at your mom in disbelief. “Omma!”
You turned to Luhan and you could see that he was confused. But then he smiled, “I have no idea that you already told to your mom about me.” he smirked.
You bit your bottom lip and faced Minwoo, “Don’t believe them. Just believe me, he’s not my boyfriend.”
“But you love him.” your mom snapped. Your face turned to red like a tomato, “Omma!” *That so embarrassing!*
She chuckled, “Aigoo! These kids! Minwoo, come on the breakfast is ready. Let’s eat and et them talk alone.”
“Eh?” -Minwoo
“Just do what I’ve said.” -your mom
“Oh.. Ne.” with that, your mom and Minwoo left the both of at the living room as they went to the dining area.
“Aish! Omma is really.. Aish!” you cursed in a low voice.
You heard Luhan chuckled. You glared at him, “Don’t laugh at—” your words were cut off as he suddenly hugged you.
“Yah, what are you doing?” you hissed as you tried to release from the hug.
“Don’t move. Let me hug you.” he whispered softly. You didn’t shrugged anymore and just let him hugged you but didn’t hugged him back.
Only one of his arm was around you since his other hand was still holding your left hand. “You have no idea how much I’m longing for this. I miss you, Sooyoung. I miss you.”
You remained silent.
“Do.. you miss me too?” you heard him asked you.
You made a pause before you answered him, “I do, I miss you Luhan.” you whispered back.
Luhan smiled at your answer. “You have no idea how happy I am right now because what you said. I’m very happy.” he paused, “Sooyoung, I love you. Do.. you love me too?”
That question made you froze. Yes, you love him but it’s complicated. How about Qri? You know she’s broken hearted because of Luhan. She’s nice to you and you couldn’t imagine that she let go Luhan just to make him happy. How about Myungsoo? He came back to you. He patiently waits for you to forgive and accept him again. He loves you so much that he considered your decision to have his vacation with his parents. Eotteokhae?
But as for now, you wanted to follow what your heart is saying.
“Yes, Luhan. I.. do love you..” you said as you buried your face to his shoulder because of embarrassment.
Luhan smiled widely after he heard you said you love him too. “Can.. I kiss you?” he asked slowly.
That question made you lifted your head from burying to his shoulder then you pushed him that caused of breaking the hug.
You glared at him, “Go back to Seoul now!” you said as you pushed him out of the house.
*Why is he still need to ask that? Aish!* you thought.
“Yah, I went here from China to see you then you’re telling me to go back to Seoul. No! Sirrheo! I already told you, I’m staying here.” -Luhan
“There’s no space for you stay at in this house.”
“Who told you I’m going to stay in this house?”
“Mwo?”
“I know that I don’t have any space here but I know that all the space in your heart is belong to me. So.. Can I stay there forever?” he asked as he pointed at your heart.
You blushed as you snapped his hand away, “Don’t make fun of me, Luhan! Just go back now!” you said as you pushed him again.
“Sooyoung, what are you doing? Why are you pushing him out?” your mom suddenly popped at the scene.
“Luhan is going back to Seoul now, omma.” you said as you keep pushing Luhan out of the house.
“No, I’m not leaving. I’ll be staying here for the whole sembreak, Mrs. Han.” Luhan snapped.
You gave him a look, “Stop talking, will you?!”
“If he wanted to stay, let him be.” your mom said as she approached the both of you.
You stared at her in disbelief, “What? But we have no enough space for him to stay at.” you snapped.
“I told you I can stay in your hea—” you didn’t let him finish his sentence as you covered his mouth and awkwardly smiled at your mom.
“If it is okay with you Luhan, you can sleep with Minwoo at his room.” -your mom
Luhan removed your hand from his mouth and beamed, “It’s okay with me wherever I sleep just to be near with Sooyoung.”
Again, you blushed.
“You kept blushing because of your boyfriend, Sooyoung.” your mom commented.
“Omma!” you hissed.
Luhan chuckled, “Don’t be embarrass to yourself. You’re cute when you’re blushing.”
“Shut up, Luhan! Just go back to Seoul now!”
“He said he wanted to stay here with you, you should be happy.” your mom snapped then turnes to Luhan, “Come on, I’ll bring you to Minwoo’s room. I’ll tell him to help you with your things.”
Luhan happily nodded, “Ne, omma.”
“Omma?!” you raised an eyebrow.
“Is there a problem with that? You’re my girlfriend so I can call your mom a ‘omma’.” -Luhan
“That’s good to hear. I like that.” your mom giggled. “Kaja?”
Luhan nodded and with that, they both went to Minwoo’s room, leaving you dumbfounded.
*Aish! Seriously.. This sembreak will give me sick. First, omma will give me headache because of her actions. I guess it’s wrong that I told her about Luhan. Hayy.. Then another is Luhan. Seems like I’m going to have a heart attack because he kept my heart beating faster than ever. Arggh! This is insane...*
CHAPTER 70
“Sooyoung, can you go to the market and buy the ingredients that I’m going to use to cook for our lunch?” you heard your mom said as she went out from Minwoo’s room.
“Ne, omma.” you replied.
“I’ll go with you.” Luhan snapped as he popped out behind your mom.
You raised an eyebrow at him. He just smiled at you in return.
*Seriously? Is he really the Luhan I used to know? He’s weird today..* you thought.
“Luhan, I can alone. Just stay here.” you said.
“No, I want to go with you.”
“Luhan--” your sentence was cut off by your mom.
“He wants to be with you so let him be.” –your mom
“Omma is right, noona.” You heard Minwoo shouted inside his room.
You glanced at Luhan and you saw him smiled widely. You rolled your eyes and sighed, “Do I have a choice? Aish!” then you went out from the house with a poker face.
You were about to go the nearest Bus Stop when a hand suddenly held your hand that made you stopped. You looked back and saw Luhan. “What?” you irritated asked.
“I have my car. We can use it. Come on.” He was about to bring you to his car but you spoke to stop him.
“Sirrheo.”
“Mwo?”
“I want to commute.” You muttered.
“There’s no need for you to do that. I have a car.” He snapped.
“Don’t you hear what I’ve said? I WANT to commute.” You emphasized the word WANT to him.
You saw his expression changed. *Did I hurt his feelings or what?* you thought.
“Mianhe..” you heard him said as he slowly let go of your hand.
You stared at him, not saying a word.
“Did I irritate you? I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be like this. I’m sorry, I just miss you so much that I wanted to be with you wherever you go. Mianhe, please don’t get mad at me.” –Luhan
“Luhan,” you sighed, “I’m sorry but I don’t want to depend on you. Look, we’re here at my home town and I want to do my usual thing here. Commuting is my usual thing every time I go to the market. I know you can’t understand me because you came from a well-family unlike me, I’m just an ordinary girl. Luhan please, I want to be alone. I want a time to think.”
Luhan silently sighed and lowered his head, “ohh..”
You gently took his hand that made him looked up to you once again. You could that he was shocked.
“I’ll talk to you later. Wait for me, ne?” you said.
Finally, Luhan smiled. He nodded, “I’ll always wait for you.”
You smiled and slowly released his hand but he grabbed it back to hold it.
“Are you still mad at me?” –Luhan
“No, I’m not.”
“Really?”
“If you won’t let go my hand, I’ll be mad at you.”
With that, Luhan quickly released your hand.
You chuckled, “I’m going now.”
“Okay, I’ll wait for you.”
You nodded and turned around. With that, you walked away.
As you were walking, you heard Luhan shouted.
“SARANGHAE HAN SOOYOUNG!”
Now, you could see that the people around are now staring at you. You lowered your head and slowly turned your head to see Luhan.
He smiled and waved at you, “I’l wait for you so come back soon.” Then he have you flying kiss and waved again.
“OHMYGOD! That girl is so lucky.” “IKR?!” “Look, her boyfriend is so cute.” “The guy is so sweet too.” “I’m jealous, I want to have a boyfriend like him.” “We can steal him. Look, the girl seems like she’s ignoring the guy.” “You’re right. We still have a chance.”
That’s what you heard from the girls around you. You glared at them but they ignored you.
*What do they think they’re saying? Aish!*
Before those girls approach Luhan, you made your way to Luhan’s direction and linked your arms to his. “Come on, I don’t think I can still go without you, my baby deer.” Then you tagged him along with you. You smirked as you walk passed by the girls.
“I thought you want to be alone huh?” Luhan teased with a playful smile on his face.
You looked away, “I hate that smile.”
“It’s okay. Well at least I know that you love me.” Then he laughed.
You rolled your eyes and you were to push him away from you but he pulled you closer to him. Your eyes widen. His face is now a few centimeters from you.
“Yah, what are you doing?” you asked nervously.
“Are you afraid to those girls?” –Luhan
“What?”
“Are you afraid that those girls will approach me?”
“Mwo? Are you kidding me? Psh! Of course not!” you pushed him but still, he didn’t let you go.
“Yah, let me go.” You said.
“Not until you tell me.”
“Tell you what?”
“The reason why did you dragged me along with you?”
You looked away, “Uh-oh.. umm..” *Aigoo! I couldn’t think a reason.*
You heard him sighed, “No reason? Okay, I’ll go back now. I’ll just wait for you.” He then released you and was about to walk away but you stopped him by grabbing his arm.
He faced you with a question look on his expression.
“Let’s go to the market together.” You lowly said while lowering your head.
You heard him grinned, “I knew you would say this. Come on, Let’s commute together.” Then he took your hand and with that, the both of you made your ways to the nearest Bus Stop.
Unknowingly, a smile formed on your face as you stared at the intertwined hands of yours and Luhan.
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